Sunday, July 26, 2009

I totally suck

There's no excuse for a two month gap between posts. Really, I know. All I can say is HOLY HECK have I been busy! This "real job" has kept me real busy. Like a few overnighters in the first month kind of busy. I'm trying to determine whether this is the reality of the job or just a temporary learning curve. My fear is that it is the former. Ultimately I'm desperately trying to find balance. I've learned far too much about the precious gift that is each moment to waste too much time on work. Don't get me wrong, I love the sense of purpose and the way my brain is being pushed. But I also want the sense of fulfillment that can only come from being a mom, wife, daughter, sister and friend. Somehow, someway, I will figure out this balance thing. Mark my words.

As if the work craziness weren't enough, we also managed to raise over $5000 for Relay for Life a couple of weeks ago. Take that cancer! Thanks to everyone who came to the Papa's pizza event, bought raffle tickets or sent a word of encouragement. It was not easy to pull everything together this year and I really couldn't have done it without my amazing teammates and all of your support.

So with work, Relay, my regular contributions to Evergreen Moms and general life stuff, blogging has become a luxury I can't afford. I think every blogger goes through the same curve. It starts with daily posts about any trivial little thing. Then swings into an awkward lull as material dries up (and sometimes interest as well). Next things start to hum again with thoughtfully crafted stories. But when material dries up and time gets limited, you start to question whether blogging is worth it. You don't want to just vomit words on the screen but thoughtful posts take time. Time you don't have. So maybe it's time to call it quits. This is when blogs either hit their stride or shut down completely. What will The Next Chapter bring? We'll see...

4 comments:

Heather July 26, 2009 at 9:14 PM  

Overnighters? Ugh to the millionth degree.

If I lived closer I'd bring over a box of sympathy cupcakes.

Christie July 26, 2009 at 9:38 PM  

I'm hoping for some words of wisdom on that balancing thing you wrote of. As a lady about to start law school and leave her toddler behind, I'm wondering how I'm going to be able to juggle husband and child and school and housework and some alone time for myself and do it all well. Or at least well enough I don't feel like a failure on all fronts. But I took the opposite route and instead of shutting down our blog, I started a second one that I can use to keep track of my school days. I get the feeling it might go something like this. Day One...I started school today. [Nine months later] I just finished my last exam and now it's time for beer.

The Tucson Gang July 27, 2009 at 11:10 AM  

Yikes sista...you are one busy gal! Cut yourself some slack...you will find balance - things will settle down...it's just been a craaaazzzy year for you guys! :-)

(A)Dad August 22, 2009 at 10:38 PM  

Hey Lori...looks like you've been posting on this one as often as I post on my one blog. Since you've got a million things going on, a job that has crazy hours (Heather tells me) and multiple other blogs and websites I fully understand.

FYI I shaved my beard.

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