Friday, October 12, 2007

Happy Birthday

My dear Lilybean,

Happy birthday!!! I can't believe it's been 3 years since we raced to the hospital to meet you. We were expecting a little bald bundle and out you came with thick brown hair. You surprised us right from the start, didn't you? You didn't spend a single second out of someone's arms for your first three days on earth. You were just passed between all of the people who love you so much. No one wanted to put you down! If you wanna know the truth, you really weren't set down for the first three months of your life. Daddy and I took turns holding you instead of putting you in a crib. I guess God knew we wouldn't have much time with you so He told us to snuggle with you lots and lots.

Remember your birthday party last year? Nana, Papa, Grandpa and Auntie M all came to the hospital to celebrate. You loved that yummy ice cream cake. You just gobbled it up! (I suppose the steroids might have had something to do with that too.) Even though we were all in the hospital, it was a special birthday. Everyday with you was special. I really wanted to throw you a super-duper birthday party this year. Even though I can plan pretty big parties, I think you're gonna have an even better party in heaven. I'll bet there's nothing like hearing the angels sing "happy birthday."

Lilybean, I am so sorry for all you had to go through last year. I know you felt yucky and I would have done anything to make it all better. But through it all, you were so brave little one. I am very proud of you. And I am so happy that you are healthy once again. This battle you fought on earth was just a blink in time compared with a blissful eternity in heaven. I can't wait to see you when I get there. To give you a big hug and smother you with kisses. To tell you stories about the animals at the zoo. To read books with you and have tea parties. And tell you again what a special treat it is to be your mommy. I love you forever!!!

Love,
Mommy

13 comments:

Anonymous October 16, 2007 at 11:28 AM  

Jeff & Lori,

I don't know what to say. But please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers everyday.

Sarah W

Anonymous October 16, 2007 at 2:40 PM  

Thinking of you on your daughters birthday. May God bless you and your memories. Dorothy Garcia

Anonymous October 16, 2007 at 5:09 PM  

Happy Birthday Lillian. Lori, I know you are against reading and not commenting... but, I can't find the words to say to this. What a beautiful tribute to your little girl. She is so lucky that God picked YOU to be her mom... and I know you feel lucky as well! -Becci

Jennifer October 16, 2007 at 5:36 PM  

Lori,
We're thinking of you and sweet Lillian today. Thank you for sharing your heart with us...you and Jeff are an amazing mommy and daddy who were able to parent an equally amazing little girl.
Jenn

Anonymous October 16, 2007 at 5:38 PM  

...and what a birthday party she will have...

Lori and Jeff,

I'm thinking of you today and sending prayers to you and Lillian.

What a beautiful tribute to your darling girl. Thank you for sharing her life with those of us who are blessed enough to know you.

We will light candles for Lillian tonight & sing her "Happy Birthday" in celebration of her special day.

Love and prayers to you,
Catherine

The Tucson Gang October 16, 2007 at 7:40 PM  

What a beautiful little note to Lily-bean on this big day. I love the first picture...she was such a precious gift.

We said a little Happy Birthday to our little cutie pootie...Lillian.

Thinking of you and Jeff today...

Lots of Love from Tucson...Traci

Anonymous October 16, 2007 at 9:15 PM  

Happy Birthday Lillian! I am sure you are having one heck of a party up there in heaven! We sure are missing you down here though. Lori & Jeff- Thinking of you and praying for you always. God Bless. Beth

LCM October 17, 2007 at 6:17 AM  

I am so glad you post pictures of your darling girl before we met her. Our kids are so different when it comes to their appearance after they start chemo. Bless you Lori for being such a great mom!

Anonymous October 17, 2007 at 3:53 PM  

Lori & Jeff: I am at a loss regarding what to say, except what a beautiful note to Lillian on her birthday. It is straight from the heart and that is what makes it so wonderful. Lillian was blessed to have you two as her Mommy and Daddy and you guys were blessed to have Lillian as your daughter. Love ya, Kathy

Anonymous October 18, 2007 at 12:40 PM  

This must have been the most beautiful birthday!
Lori & Jeff, my thoughts are always with you. You are wonderful parents that continue to express & share amazing love with your daughter!
Melissa H

Anonymous October 18, 2007 at 9:10 PM  

You are in my prayers and I love you! I'm so sorry, this past week must've been so tough for you. The note to Lillian was so sweet and special. Maybe God has a computer up in Heaven and read her the note...or I guess he wouldn't need a computer, He knows all so He could just tell her what you said. Either way, I'm sure that God found a way to let Lillian know how much you love her. Love, Emily

Anonymous October 18, 2007 at 10:09 PM  

Dear Lori and Jeff, What a touching tribute to a beautiful child. You are an amazing mommy Lori and both Lillian and the children you will have are very lucky. God Bless, Laura

celestemc October 19, 2007 at 11:32 PM  

I'm still amazed just how much we have in common, and at God's timing. My Chelsea's birthday is right around the corner, and so much of your letter to Lillian hit so close to home. She has been on my mind so much, memories of previous birthdays - and the hopes and dreams of birthdays that now will never be here on this earth.

I love you and am sending a big hug. Know that you are not alone.
I can relate and understand the pain, but HE is holding us both.

~C

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